Hey everyone, I hope you’re all well 🙂
My break in August was great, but after a year and a half of pandemic and two years of an MA in Creative Writing that I mostly hated, it wasn’t enough. Posting feels like another item on an endless to do list right now, so after a lot of thought I’ve decided to take a longer break.
I barely wrote again in August, and until I’ve made progress towards finishing a first draft I won’t be blogging. I’ve been trying to finish a draft for 5 years, and the pressure during my MA didn’t help. Even though it’s been 8 months since I finished my last assignment the desire to write hasn’t fully returned. Other writers seem to finish drafts easily, and I need to figure out why I rarely finish anything at all.
Perhaps I haven’t been trying as hard as I could, or piling on too many distractions. First it was recapping Flash/Arrow episodes, which took hours away from writing, then it was Twitter hashtag games and weekly short stories, which might’ve helped, but writing/editing them took so much time. Then it was work experience in publishing, blog hops, and my MA. I’m terrible at managing lots of tasks, but I keep adding more to my plate and avoiding the one thing I say I want to do.
Maybe I’m scared to finish a book, or convinced it’ll never be as good as my favourites, and that’s why I keep procrastinating. Maybe I’m not destined to write at all. Either way, I need to see what happens if I have nothing (okay, as little as possible) on my plate. To those who write, blog, work, have kids and manage to juggle it all, I have no idea how you do it. I often wonder if there’s something wrong with me because I can’t multitask and get overwhelmed when there’s too much to do.
I’m not leaving the community completely. I’ll still visit my favourite blogs, I just won’t post for a while: Until at least Jan 2022. I might use Instagram/Twitter, as I don’t need to edit longer posts, Goodreads for book reviews, and Tumblr for memes/random diary type posts. That’s only a maybe though. Mostly I’ll be AFK as I focus on as few commitments as possible and try to rediscover my love of writing.
I’ll leave you with an inspirational quote which I’m trying to live up to:
Passion should be felt in the present, not in the idea of future accomplishment.
Basically, I should be enjoying the process of writing, not the big scary idea of finishing a draft. That’s what I’m aiming for, and whilst I’m at it I might tackle my never-ending TBR list.
So see you around, in a friendly neighbourhood Spiderman capacity, but not in a posting capacity 🙂
Thanks for Reading!
How was August? Do you ever want to disappear from the internet for a bit? How do you manage multiple tasks?
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